I want to talk to you today about a mystical experience that I had when I was in my 20s. I think it's important to share with you, since I haven't ever before, talked about this publicly in any way, ever.

It's actually critical and formulating in my life for who I am now and the things that I'm doing now.

I went to Queen's University and I was surrounded by engineers at a time in my life that I was also interested in spirituality and my personal relationship to divinity and the world in my life and trying to understand what it all meant and where I fit in it.

The big questions

Up until that point, I had thought I was going to be a lawyer. That was my father's dream. He wanted me to be a lawyer.

It's amazing what we do because the people that we love in our lives give us positive feedback about us.

My dad was really happy and excited for me to be a lawyer. That made him happy and that's why I pursued it for as long as I did.

So sad.

When I went to Queen's, I realized I wasn't going to do that.

I had a little mental breakdown, not really, but a culture shock of what am I really here for? Because that was really what started this whole thing is I thought about being a lawyer.

The whole reason in my head to be a lawyer was to get a good job, to make a lot of money, to buy a big house and have a nice car.

See, it started to breakdown there. It started to not really make sense anymore.

Where was the happiness? Where was the fulfillment? Where was the joy?

I didn't get it.

Why?

Why was I doing this? For what purpose? Why? Why was I here?

Why was I here?

Those are the questions that will start changing your life.

Why am I here? What am I supposed to be doing?

Anyway, I was surrounded by engineers. It was interesting to be surrounded by math, science and physics, as I was reading things like The Tao te Ching. I was returning to the Judeo-Christian Bible, and reading and trying to understand my ideas of God and how I fit into the universe and what that relationship looked like and why I was here and what was my purpose.

My boyfriend at the time was an engineer. I hung around him and all his friends all the time. I started learning about quantum mechanics at the same time that I was having this awakening in spirit.

They're forever melded as one. Quantum mechanics are symbolic of God to me.

They're the same thing. It's quite fascinating.

Anyway, we can talk about that later.

The "Event"

When I was about 22, I was over at a very good friend's house.

His name is Dave.

I had what I call now the witch's brew, which is: I drank one beer and I shared one joint with Dave. I had one very heavily-laden ginseng tea and one fisherman's friend.

That was the magical cocktail.

It wasn't really, but it's interesting to me to think that that was the potion.

We were listening to Sinead O'Connor.

It was Universal Mother. I'm pretty sure that the song playing was called In This Heart, which always will have special meaning for me, forever. Later in my life I have sung this song for the world. In this heart is the Earth.

Only to adore you, my heart is for you, my love, my love, my love.

This is my grief for you. For only the loss of you, the hurting of you… my love, my love, my love.

But something happened.

I had what is, in traditions, called a mystical experience, which is the flowing of energy through your body and it clears away all blocks and the way through.

It's raising the kundalini, as it's called in the Eastern traditions... our bodies are fields of energy.

That's all we are.

We're all energy. We're just vibrating waves that also look like particles.

Anyway, I had a mystical experience where the kundalini raises through, basically, your spine stem. It raises up and through.

It feels like it sprouts out of the top of your head and it fountains out. It's like having a whole body orgasm, basically...

When this was happening, Dave was talking to me about, I don't know, thought balls or something.

I don't even remember what he was saying to me because my concentration was on how my body was feeling and how something was happening.

I kept telling him,

What it was, was a mystical experience, which changed my life forever.

My energy poured all through my body, out the top of my head. It fountained all around.

I just started to laugh because in this moment was knowing.

This is different from learning or thinking or something like this.

This was knowing, experiencing right in the cells, right down to the vibration of the atoms knowing, that everything was one, nothing is exempt or ‘outside’. Not ever separate, and there is only love.

Those are the 2 filters that have been guiding forces in my life since that moment in my mid-20s: is it loving and is it inclusive? Because those are the only 2 things that I know for sure are real in the world; that it is all love and it is all one. Loving Inclusion. Everything that was or is or ever will be. Forever.

Everything is okay & it's all God

There is not one single thing that exists outside of divinity.

Everything is divine. Everything is God.

I hate the word God. It's so totally and completely inadequate to describe the depth and breadth of what it's supposed to represent - the existence of all the everything, everywhere at once… the universe that was and is and is to come.

I will, from now on, call it Beloved Presence because that's what makes me happy.

There is nothing that is outside Beloved Presence.

We're all one. We're all connected, intimately connected. There is nothing that is exempt. There is nothing outside. Nothing exists outside of that, even the void. The void is within the Beloved Presence.

It's all love.

I knew, at that same core vibration, atom level of that, everything was okay.

Everything had always been okay. It was okay right now.

It will always be okay. Everything is okay.

Everything is, was and will be okay - forever.

Nothing can be destroyed the way we think. Nothing. Nothing is ever going to shit the way we think. We can try our hardest and we will never be able to ruin it the way we think we can.

It's okay.

There's no judgment.

There is just unbelievable, unconditional love and understanding.

We fail when it comes to unconditional love in comparison to what I felt in that moment.

It was just utter and total acceptance and love.

Period. That's it. That's all that exists here. And everywhere.

Truly, it's really, really simple, but then go and live your life in that. Go and take that out into the marketplace. Just go.

That changed my life forever.

I don't think you can go through something like that and not be changed forever.

The nice thing about it was for years afterwards, all I had to do was ask for a hug from Beloved Presence and I would have that same feeling again - total calm and peace, total, unconditional love, and knowing that everything was okay.

It had always been okay and it will always be okay.

Then I stopped asking for it and I stopped thinking about it and I forgot.

Forgotten, but never lost

I just remembered.

I just recently remembered again.

That's why this is changing.

Everything needs to change in my life to get back on track to what has always been the only thing that ever mattered to me, which was talking about how divinity exists and how you and I are it.

We are allowing that spirit to come into the world through what we do and what we say and what we think.

All right, that's my moment, my mystical moment that I thought you should probably know about.

New Ways New Paths New Offerings

We can either get on board and understand and work with that or make a bunch of decisions that don't make any sense because they're based in stupidness like making money, which isn't stupid but it doesn't work if it's from the foundation of making money.

The whole idea is to do work that matters, to share your sacred light, to share what is your purpose here to do, and then learn how to make that into a sustainable business.

No one taught us in college how to live and work a spiritual practice. Yeah, build a spiritual-based business, build a heart-based light worker business, yet there was not class for that. We're all just figuring that as we go along.

I would love to hear about any of your mystical experiences.

I understand that my mystical experience is really important to me and yours is to you and no one else's is ever going to mean the same as it does to you, but I'd love to hear about it because it's nice to know that you're not the only one.

It's good to know that other people are having these experiences.

And they are, mystical experiences are everywhere. We gotta start sharing them so everyone knows it’s normal.

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